There're alot of things going through my mind recently.
i know i contradict my thoughts, i really dont know what i want.
and its not that i dont want to talk about it.
its like, nobody can ever understand and stand in my shoes to think for me.
i guess i'm the only one who can resolve all of this.
i started this mess, i've to clear it.
If you like her, just go for it.
From the bottom of my heart, i sincerely wish you all the best.
I know, what's the point of saying this when i know idon't want to give all of these up.
Its as simple, cause i love you.
All these times, i thought i had already forgotten about everything and start anew as friends.
I guess i did not, the feelings remained.
It never had go away, and i thought i start to fall for you again.
Said much, i guess you know what i'm trying to say.
Only you can give that sense of security.
I've made up my mind already, no more fooling around.
I'll try my best to make every single thing happen.
For you, i will.
If we were together, it would have been the second year we would be celebrating.
but ya, it all ended in a year.
i hope everything would just return back to me.
I don't even know if you would want this back.
i want nothing else already, really.
after having 10 months of fun, and i'm back to the starting point.
i had not moved on at all.
you're the only one who would not throw me aside.