i understand that meaning behind that melody. im sorry that i had left and you are alone now, perhaps its the best. i really wish you all the best and take care of youself from now.
what's that attitude for? seriously, you dont know who are the nice ones there for you and you, treating us like friends that always dig ourselves with books. mind you, skipping classes dont even do any good although going to class sometimes are just a waste of time but at least we turned up to show a little respect to the teacher oh man, are going to classes wrong now? ok, then we can all jolly well quit school. ya so what if we are part of your circle of friends who dont support your truancy, we know whats best for us. and so be it, if you think that way. im quite bothered by your actions. changing groups for the sake of you to stand some other irritating worm's behaviour, you think i like it? forget it, if you are unapprecaiative. NOT EVEN A THANK YOU FROM YOU. i did not write all of these for nothing or venting my anger but to let you know its still not too late to open your heart a little and to realise the friends around you are for something. even though we are not as close as before, but really from the bottom of the heart i guess all of us dont wish to hurt you too. its up to you now, i've said my piece.
celebrated mingjing's birthday yesterday seoul garder, my god. i swear everything looks so tempting. started off with our humungous appetite and end up with a bloated stomach a small powerpuff girl cake, so cute can. and of course the smashing on her face. i know we enjoyed and yes most of all, she was touched by what we've done. so staying up till 4 doing th big card for her is worth it. i like the smiles when everybody got so happy when they saw my efforts. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL(: thanks for everything that you have done, seriously. what we've done for that only one day can only add up to half of your concern towards us. you do make a difference. from my heart, you are a friend i wont forget indeed.
the stress from both work and school has been piling up ever since each started. i really wish for someone to provide me. im tired from all of these already. i need a break again.
not forgetting the K session with ANYING(: it was like super fun to the maxxxxxxxxx. she says my singing improved. maybe thats because i didnt sing to her for like 4 months alr. but anw, our combination really make a diff. I WANT TO MEET UP WITH YOU AGAIN ALRIGHT. loveyou loveyou!
ok, i shall update till here the rest will wait for me to reopen my blog
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
i know you might not get to see this since you are avoiding. but whatever it is, i hope you will move on with life. and i know you will find a better one than me, definitely. of course, those memories will still stay with me forever. maybe im selfish for only thinking for myself, but i guess this is the only way out to stop you from falling any deeper.
Maybe in the future we will not even be on talking terms, but dont worry i will still be there for you when you need a listening ear, i promise. i'm sorry to turn things ugly. i have my reasons for doing these, yes i know you will think that explanation is stupid but then again i wouldnt bear to hurt a good friend like you.
i will miss your cooking i will miss the days when we talk on the phone i will miss you for concerning so much for me. i will miss labelling you as DINOSAUR i will miss your countless hugs filled with affection i really do. but its time to move on with our lives i know you need time alone so i guess i won't contact you anymore but if you need me, just call me alright.
All i need now was to see your reply that you're fine so at least i wont have to worry anymore. Stay strong, i know you will. there are many out there waiting for you to give them a chance
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know That you were sitting home just wishing we Could go back to when it was just you and me I'm sorry for the times I would neglect I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
im sorry for every single thing i've done.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
ok, this is damn freaky. i clicked on the pause button, there's music and when i clicked play, there's 2 voices. ahhhh, whatever. i just blogged in random. i want to sleeeeeeeeeeep soon. another work terror tmr with those heat stroke symptoms. and know something the spot light in my shop does work better for sun tanning than the sun. trust me, my mum just said i became darker than usual. damnnnnnnn, the spotlights in the shop. and freaking hell they dont want to switch on the air con.WE ARE HUMANS, MIND YOU. ok, my brains and fingers aren't working as fast alr. shall blog again on mon when im in dinosaur's cage. hahaha, only someone will know what im talking about. okok, my eyes are signalling me to stop.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
ok, this post is only meant for 1 person to see. don't worry too much ok. even if lovers are not meant to be, we still could be the bestest friend right. and i have not even say i dont want to befriend you anymore just let nature takes it course CHEERUP OK(: im trying my very best now to forget the others, and hopefully my hardwork will pay off.
Monday, October 06, 2008
finally i got the time to revive this. a day off at work, rotting at home is like my favourite pasttime nowadays. pushed away all my dates, im sorry darlings. i promise to make it up for you all again working can really kill me totally. customers are like damn irritating to the maxxxxxxxxxx, its not as if i have no patience with them. but after serving them for sooooooooooooo long they replied with their insincere NO. damn it ok, and it happens countless times which makes my day at work super screwed. SOMEONE WENT OUT SHOPPING TODAY WORXZXZXXZ cause im going over next mon. so touched so touched.hahaha dont worry yo, you will receive my surprise on 16th. i shall keep you in suspense first.
我不要你把我推给别人去疼爱 我对你的心是百分之一百 每一个想你的习惯 那么实在 我早已对你产生的依赖 一天天 一点点 砌成了爱 Love Is Forever Forever Love
this song is damn nice i swear. okok, i will go sing and put it up tonight if possible. and oh ya, my birthday photos have not been uploaded. i will do it sooooooooon ok im so tired again, sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping time again//
mentioning about birthday although this year was not as fruitful as last year but spending it with my darlings make it all worthwhile right. but whatever i received this year was not very important, as long as i know there's still ppl for me to count on and realise my exsistence. and i have no time to reply most of your texts so i shall do it here. pardon me(: THANKS EVERYONE FOR YOUR GIFTS, TEXTS, SINCERITY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! i know its like 1 week ago kind of event but i wasnt really in the mood to blog so i can only post it up late.
AND THAT BOUQUET OF SUNFLOWERS FROM KELLY, DES, BROTHER, YQ AND JL WAS LOVELY. they took my casual remark seriously and gave it to me as birthday present. that sight totally just make me melt on the spot. goodness.
** ANYING'S EFFORT HAD NOT GONE TO NOUGHT. CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR ME, EVEN IF ITS NOT PLANNED WELL I STILL LIKE IT CAUSE ITS FROM YOU(: our date is arriving. im so exciteeeeeeeed.hahaha, RMBR, 3'S A CROWD!hahaha
CHERLY, RUIXIN AND ANNA WERE LIKE SUPER NICE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE THING WITHOUT EVEN COMPLAINING ABOUT A SINGLE ANT THAT THEY ARE UNHAPPY ABOUT. I THANK GOD I'VE MADE SUCH NICE FRIENDS.
AND I MUST THANK ANOTHER 2 IMPORTANT PPL, K AND DK.HAHHA thanks for making this 17th birthday a memorable one for me. racking your brains for all those surprises and everything. really thanks so much
and the list goes on...
sorry ya, not able to thank every single one of you. but i know you feel my sincere THANKS.
i think its time to have a photo to add colours to this black and white. its not very nice. SORRY I'VE SPOILED YOUR DEAR EYES. okok, i really want to sleep alr.
hear and rate. thanks thanks(:
Thursday, October 02, 2008
IM GOING TO MAKE THIS QUICK QUICK BEFORE I GO OUT SINGING YO, EXCITEEEEEEEEEED
actually i want to dedicate this post for this someone i dont know if you will this cause your exams are nearing. im using this 0.000000000000001%. i know im breaking my promise again to bring up the topic about this person. but ya ya, you know who you are i pray for you to do well for your major exam. study hard for the next few weeks alright. score well and dont regret like me take care and much loves(:
OKOK, I HAVE TO GOOOOOOOOO NOW OR NOT THEY WILLLLLL BARK AT ME.HAHAHA