Oh you know, you know, you know Id never ask you to change If perfect is what you're searching for Then just stay the same So don't even bother asking If you look okay You know I say
When I see your face There's not a thing that I would change Cause you're amazing Just the way you are
So that someone special in my life doesn't exist anymore i swear im a fool in this love game. i dare not take up any risk again and all along, when i know that i shouldnt put in any feelings i still did. idk why but yes it feels like im hallucinating myself. what the hell is wrong with me. i shouldn't even have such an improper feeling towards someone whom i've known for less than 2 months or so and to even put in any special feelings for someone that i would not imagine i will fall for. but whatever, if its gone its gone. i wouldnt force either of us, let it stay this way. dont come into my life anymore, i've kinda regretted.
and J is going on a holiday for freakingggggg 11 days. ok it seems short but ya to me its a super long time frame can. but im glad that you still text me when you're there(: i await for your arrival!8 more days. check out your fb manzxzxzx(:
this year's birthday is not awesome in the end, i still cried. its not that its not well-planned. but the scars will forever be there. i still remember last year on this very day. and i cant believe im still quite bothered over it. !!! I NEED TO GET A LIFE SERIOUSLY.
life's boring, life's screwed. ive nothing to blog about. im determined, i need to lose some weight already before J comes back!
Friday, September 17, 2010
To: someone special
i dont think you will ever get to see this but yes i just want to blog whatever that had happened since we met.
i'm super grateful that i went for supafly that very night on sat. starting off by asking who are you and such. yesss, and things started off like this. talking to you even on the phone only makes me feel happy. idk if im a fool by saying all of this. but yes, it really did. every text that pops out, i always hope that its from you(:
we started meeting each other on that very podium where we first met Dancing together and yeah in our eyes its only US that exist. My favourite dance from you: One Love. goodness you were great, baby(: whenever im there, i always see you. cause you are always worried for my safety. thanks darling, i really appreciate it.
and last night, when it all happens. i still remembered the previous night of you asking me to stop all the affections i have. but you know i just couldn't. its just about you, but ya i know you just can't forget her. oh well, i will still persist till i see no light
i'm really not someone who would play another's feelings. i treat heart matters very seriously but you just couldnt believe me. im kinda tired to keep repeating my words to just assuring you. i need my own assurance as well, have some confidence in me? and im sorry for talking to you in a very bad tone over the receiver's just now. idk what has gone into me. but yesss, im still feeling bad about it. you know it meant so much to me when you start to ignore me. i dont like it really.
till this day, i hope i wouldnt regret the choice that i've made. im really sorry if ive did anything to make you angry.