i've regretted i want to wait no more tired already i've tried all the methods i could. and still, the results are the same. why do i have to let the ppl around me to feel the heartache too. i hate this serious
CAMP WAS GREAT! cause i know awesome people. but im not going to blog the photos anytime soon
TONGUE PIERCING SOOOOOOOOOON. CAN'T WAIT YO.
Friday, October 30, 2009
you must know how i feel for you even after a week, i just couldn't help and went to find you i know i'm dumb and should move on whatever but then, how can i possibly forget all the things that we did
i really hope there's this one last chance waiting. even if its a tryout, i will treasure every sec of it cause the company is you and i wish, you feel the sincerity in me
you are hesitating for a choice will we quarrel like all the time in the future again? let me tell you this, we can avoid those quarrels if we compromise. and i know we really can dont be afraid to try again, cause you will never know until you succeed. and denying me a chance to try it, its making the both of us suffer only.
now i know the point of drinking when you are sad and the feeling sucks much im running a temperature now. tell me about it
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
MJ'S BIRTHDAY WAS A BLAST. SOMETHING DIFFERENT THIS YEAR. AND I HOPE YOU LIKE IT. LASTLY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i'm waiting for more photos to be sent. ok, i want to be busy with clothes now. byeeeeeee.
PLEASE GO AND ASK MISS YANMING, HOW SHE PRONOUNCE AWESOME. A-WE-SOMMMME.HAHAHHAA(:
and if i really became your memory... play this and read at the same time
Obviously my heart has not given up. its still dreaming with me. i know its impossible already, but just let me dream a little more so it won't hurt so much
all those things that we did all the places that we went all the quarrels and happy memories that we have been through together are nonetheless sweet
i know its damn stupid of me living in such denial waiting for you to carry me in your arms and giving me a pat on my head. i can only act strong and pretend nothing had happened in front of my friends. it's not that i'm not treating them as the best now but i guess some things are best kept in silent. thanks all for your words but i know it myself. i am just stubborn to accept it.
for now, all this will be in history. i know whatever i do will not gain back your love so i won't waste my time anymore. i will try doing the things that we've wanted to did together and reverting back to my old self but this time round not for that glimpse of hope and just to gain back confidence in myself i know i can do it
i have so many things to tell you but will you still be there to listen to me? currently, i dont know how i should face you i can only learn how to avoid and taking everything by stride.
i dont know whats the sudden change when its like an excuse we can always compromise and talk nicely. but it doesn't seem that way anymore maybe your feelings had faded or maybe im not pretty to you anymore i really dont know this one yr is really great to have you around i will keep you in a dark corner of my heart and you will be my very good friend(:
i thank you, my boyfriend. i think its really time for me to give up and carry on with my life but i believe in that 5 yrs promise, really.
i think i've spent quite long typing this my tears kept blurring my vision.
and now, i think i'm starting to get back on track but still my health is getting from bad to worse my heart problems are returning to me i'm having stomach upsets every now and then my appetite has become smaller each day. i want to eat more but nvm, idk why. good way to lose weight but don't learn, its wrong cause exercise is still the most practical way(: [i've learnt already:)]
Saturday, October 24, 2009
It's been so long that i've been so depressed. i've been trying many ways just to get back. and even the ex convicts got their chances back what about mine, i need someone to enlighten me.
i don't understand this i had stopped eating since ytd and why am i still puking all over and the cold sweat just kept dripping the fever is just as stubborn as me. is this like my retribution or something?
BUT ULTMIATELY, I'VE LOST 3KG(:
ok, it's damn damn damn torturing.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
thanks girl for today. *ignore my eyes
When your mind says give up, hope says one more try
i'm confused over what you've said and i'm super duper tired over what i'm going through. so i will just smile and pass my day happily. maybe i'm just not the same someone whom you've known for the past years. you've changed as well. ya, people do change and isn't it better to live in a beautiful lie rather than you waking up being pessismistic all the time. ok thats totally no link. and so, people do change and make mistakes. sometimes, the mistakes that you've committed are just hard to accept and forgive. i'm getting affected over small things you do and say thats cause there's love. i'm not sure if its mutual, but for me i definitely never regret not forgiving you those times when i'm pissed. and cause, i want you to know that you are important. but whatever, guys and girls always think differently. so no matter how much i tried to address my point of view, its redundant. i didnt know that meeting me would tire you out so badly. then be straightforward and tell me. whatever i've said are not important to you, cause you think that they are not pleasing to the ears? and cut those crap about you just playing overboard. don't ever deny that you have a little interest in her. i admit she's kind of cute but i think i didn't lost to her too. if you don't have the interest, then in the first place why do you talk to her for? just say that she caught your attention, beloved eyecandy. i'm not countering you in whatever i said. yes, i like to boss around. then what about those times when you asked me to go over your place, are those like not in sight? when we are outside, i gave you face. i tried my best not to show any attitude to you. but still, what i get. ppl scolding me having some dog face over one mistake. please man, whatever i do its always wrong. spare a thought for me can. i've always tried ways to improve[ok maybe my attitude just suck], but still i will never reach your ideal target. sorry then, my fault. ya thats all i know that i can say. and when you tell me face to face about me neglecting your work, you wont know how much pain i've received k. then those times when i planned surprises, what are all those? and its not that i've ever wanted to compare the sacrifices we've made for each other but just maybe i deserve a little better? ok, maybe i dont.
continue later. my eyeballs are drowned. they need to breathe
i'm just saying but i wont do it. why is it that hard to get over somethings which i must forget. damn it, i hate the world. i can jolly well go die. Bye
OK, ALL THESE ARE FREAKING IMPORTANT! dino: You will always be with me i am willing to do whatever u wan me too. and im willing to forget all those miss me: Dun liddat k? I know we will forgive each other. ilu. Zy: Cheer up babe. not always there for u sorry.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
just a post before the short hiatus
Just when i've decided to give you a plus point, everything was just so wrong. ya sorry, i promise i won't let you neglect your work again. let's not meet till you finish your deadlines.
yixin's birthday was awesome. and i met new friends and i like them(:
the rest are found in her facebook.
i know this photo looks retarded but i think the effects are damn cool i just hate to pause for minutes taking photos. then, i shall start shaking my heads. high on drugs.hahha
NEXT FRI IS THEEEEEEEEEEEE HALLOWEEN CAMP! SO SEXCITEDDDDDDDDD(:
Monday, October 19, 2009
first day of school was great. i think i don't have the vibe for blogging anymore maybe i will go on a short hiatus for now. but still, you must come back and visit regularly k! (:
Thursday, October 15, 2009
NO SCHOOL ON FRIDAY! HAHAHAHHA SOMEONE'S JEALOUS BIG TIME.
yes, dont be bothered with me im just a nuisance in your life
Monday, October 05, 2009
so much happened today during work and just one sentence for that gucci freak, screw you bitch, i've worked 4 hours for nothing so lowdown of you. ok, maybe your gucci was fake afterall.
im just scolding to make myself feel better(:
i held my anger down all the way after work i admit i was super guailan today but i dont care ivy was nice to be my companion the whole day(:
after work, dearest waited for like an hour for me. i am sorry, seriously but i treated you food and ok, i've forgotten everything temporaily and OMG I THINK IM THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON EARTH TODAY CAUSE I TRRRRRRRRIED AND POOOMISE. HHAHHA
ok, rest well now you qianyu. sorry, i know its abrupt
Sunday, October 04, 2009
SPARKLES. OMG DAMN IT, THEY SUPER CHIO CAN. i need to sleep soon after uploading the photos im freaking tired.
and the aftermath;
i concluded i have short hands seriously i cannot take photos properly with another person beside me hahah, OR RATHER MY FACE IS TOO BIG FOR THE CAM. I THINK I WILL STICK WITH NO.1 CHOICE(:
Saturday, October 03, 2009
MY HAIR REMINDED ME OF TWISTER FRIES.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
" i don't know what to blog about, everything seems the same."
KEAGAN SNG SAYS, " SAY I PIG!" haha, i can't imagine you wearing this i swear.
everything doesn't matter as long as i get to see your smile.