And what about the sarcifices that you've mentioned compared to mine.
if everyone just treat first impression as the best, equals to they are blinded by everything
and afterall its just a cover.
who knows if its real.
i might not be the best but i know i treat you unconditionally
and better still, i treat you nicer than myself.
and now, i don't want to get back.
why must you force me.
so what if the feelings are still there.
but how can i go back to someone who hurt me so much till im immune to how he's treating me.
thats really bad you know.
and when i say i will take greater advantage of you, you've complained.
i guess you've not prepared to love selflessly
im trying to pick myself up
i wanted to get back too.
but i just cant do it.
im sorry
i guess i will take a very long time for me to be who i really want to be.
i hate my life now, seriously
let me tell you this, even if how much you've ever wanted to repent and make up to the mistakes you've committed last time, i guess it doesnt make a difference.
cause i dont feel for anything you are doing now
and you are changing just for the sake of me saying it.
so isnt that just lying to yourself as well as me.
we dont want that,
we want to move on with life.
even if in the future there's no more us, we will still be the closest friends ever.
trust me, we can work this out
but i guess there's no turning back for this alr.
i dont know how to tell you, so i blog here.
hopefully you will see it one day.

however, if you are still holding on to that impossible dream.
i guess you can only give up.
wish you all the best.
the best way to repay me is to love your next half well.
i will then not regret.
i thank you for your love, not forgetting your care.
and yes, thanks for that 1 year plus
its been wonderful.
thats all that i want to say.
dont ask me anything or lecture me anything about this anymore.
just read this, i guess this will clear all your doubts.