And what about the sarcifices that you've mentioned compared to mine. if everyone just treat first impression as the best, equals to they are blinded by everything and afterall its just a cover. who knows if its real. i might not be the best but i know i treat you unconditionally and better still, i treat you nicer than myself. and now, i don't want to get back. why must you force me. so what if the feelings are still there. but how can i go back to someone who hurt me so much till im immune to how he's treating me. thats really bad you know. and when i say i will take greater advantage of you, you've complained. i guess you've not prepared to love selflessly im trying to pick myself up i wanted to get back too. but i just cant do it. im sorry i guess i will take a very long time for me to be who i really want to be. i hate my life now, seriously let me tell you this, even if how much you've ever wanted to repent and make up to the mistakes you've committed last time, i guess it doesnt make a difference. cause i dont feel for anything you are doing now and you are changing just for the sake of me saying it. so isnt that just lying to yourself as well as me. we dont want that, we want to move on with life. even if in the future there's no more us, we will still be the closest friends ever. trust me, we can work this out but i guess there's no turning back for this alr. i dont know how to tell you, so i blog here. hopefully you will see it one day.
however, if you are still holding on to that impossible dream. i guess you can only give up. wish you all the best. the best way to repay me is to love your next half well. i will then not regret. i thank you for your love, not forgetting your care. and yes, thanks for that 1 year plus its been wonderful. thats all that i want to say. dont ask me anything or lecture me anything about this anymore. just read this, i guess this will clear all your doubts.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
I'm quite lazy to blog anyway.
AND THIS YR VALENTINE'S I'M REAKING NOT GOING OUT WITH ANYBODY OK YOU HAPPY NOW! I WILL PROVE IT TO YOU. FREAKING ASSUME THAT IM SOME LOOSE WOMAN OUTSIDE GO AND THINK WHAT YOU WANT IM FINE BEING ALONE LAAAAA. GO AWAY YOU PEST. AND EVERYTIME WHEN I SEE YOU, I WILL CRY. I GUESS ITS SOME CURSE OR STH. DAMN IT LA, IM FREAKING ANGRY. PLUS THE MOODSWINGS AND EVERYONE ARD ME THAT...................... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG, IM CRAZY OK SERIOUSLY!
I THINK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME AFTER SO LONG, I BLOGGED IN THE MOST CHEENA WAY WITH THE DOTS. DISGUSTING BUT I DONT CARE CAUSE IM PISSED
Thursday, February 04, 2010
I know you need assurance,
sometimes people just don't know what you are going through don't assume. and then i'm kind of tired already. cannnnnnnnnnn someone like date me to barrage? i need some space. freaking stress up by everything/