fine, everything's my fault and so be it since when will it ever be your turn to admit that you are in the wrong cause its screwed, i've got the blame when everything's well do i even have the right to claim the credit. and now what, starting a cold war doesnt help man ok ya, i'm always so evil to vent my anger here and all but this time round i really can't contain anymore. do you even care when i was injured so badly till my feet became trotters, i think you wont even care a shit out of it k. AND YES, SO WHAT IF I OWE MY LIFE TO YOU?! DOES THAT MEAN I HAVE NO MORE RIGHTS. ok, im going to stop this now IM SERIOUSLY IN A BAD MOOD
and im going to start my torturous studying session from tmr onwards and hopefully my efforts will be paid off at the end of the day
there's work till 5 tmr. oh man, im so looking forward cause its only 6 hours(: maybe this is the only thing that im happy about only
AND TO GRACE: im sorry but you've called the wrong timing last night and i apologise for my somewhat bad attitude towards you. i'm not mad at you in any case.
and i forgot to mention thurs was great love matters is quite a nice show and it is marked a lil more fantastic cause i watch it with superlove(:
Friday, January 23, 2009
I NEED MY CAMERA BADLY, AND ITS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. CAN IT RUN TO ME BEFORE CNY? IM SURE I DONT WANT TO MISS OUT THOSE NICE PICTURES. AND I HATE MY PHONE FOR BEING SUCH A BIMBO.
just dyed my hair and its no longer LIANXZXZXZX
OMGOODNESS, my hair length became shorter cannnnnnnnnnnn
something i wished for came true(:
nicest eyebrows ever(:
AND AFTER RECOVERING FROM ULCERS I GOT IT AGAIN.
BUT SADLY, I HAVE NO PHOTOS TO PUT UP
SO NOW YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE MY CAMERA(:
i guess i wont be turning up that day to make it a difficult position for you. go and enjoy yourself then. AND YOU KNOW I WILL STILL LOVE YOU(: IT APPLIES TO NO MATTER YOU'VE GOT THE WRONG IDEA OF ME OR NOT. seriously, being happy or not to put all the blame on you its pointless. cause actually i just want to let you know my reason for doing that if you still think that im unforgivable, then forget it k i dont wish to say anymore because i know you wont hear. all the best then, DEAREST ANYING.
i will endure no matter how harsh it is, cause that is the punishment i have to receive.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
ANYING: i thank your effort for coming down all the way to find me during work that day but i guess its the wrong timing, cause i received bad news about hitting the target of 2.3k and at the same time i cannot stand the heat that is killing. PLUS YOUR SCARING REALLY SHOCKED ME. im not angry with you serious. its just maybe not the right time. contact me soooooooooooooon ok if you are still angry over this, then maybe i will talk it out with you again.
The tears in my eyes are drowning me. And i hate getting sick all the time, and irritable sneezing and monstrous voice. I dont even feel like going sch tmr, the next day and best is EVERYDAY(: but thats impossible i know.
damn, i dont know why but everything's not going my way nowadays even the tarot cards are telling my sign. yes, and i promised i wont believe. but somethings are predestined. so contradicting. whatever. im too sick to even continue to blog cause i dont know what other nonsense will come to my brain.
i need a change of hair colour my hair totally suck now laaaaaaaaaaaaaa, and i need to cut it real short. hahaha, im just saying. i wont
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sorry but you made me realised promises are nothing but a lie maybe you didnt know how significant every single thing meant to me.
and i really wished i could change human's nature why must everyone regret after not cherishing those things when they are around. and when its gone, you try and try just to make it up. so what if im all filled with disappointment. cause at the every end i know im not any good enough either.
hopefully everything will just turn out well in the future:) those above are just words said when im hot-headed puny little soul, dont be afraid. i wont bite you worzxzxxz
i like his voice(: and the jap version for this song is super nice.
sorry i know i just spoilt the song and this is quite an old voice clip.
Friday, January 16, 2009
i'm thankful you have been here always:)
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
what you wish to say or want to say i won't want to know either. its none of my business like what i've said earlier on and those that have nothing to do with these, please i dont need you to make any comments or side anyone. thanks. cause i think its just a waste of time AND I WANT TO TELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL ALL OF YOU, I DIDNT MANIPULATE ANYONE. YOU CAN GO AND ASK THEM YOURSELF. I DIDNT STOP THEM FROM TALKING TO YOU EITHER.
this whole week will be so eventful till im suffocating. i hate it when im losing my sleep. and damn, im having blood shot eyes again. lectures are getting boring day by day but of course, i've become less noisy in class when time passes by im too tired to make any noise alrrrrrr. BUT WHEN IT COMES TO GIRLFRIENDS, I WILL TURN EXTREMELY WILD AND SCREAMMMMMMMM LIKE AN INSANE FREAK. ok, im ending here. my eyelids are getting heavier. goodnight(:
and then, PLS DONT TAKE THINGS FOR GRANTED. AND STOP BEING SO PARANOID OVER WHAT I HAD DONE OR NOT, AND IN FACT I DID NOT EVEN DO A SINGLE THING. ITS JUST PURE COINCIDENCE. I SERIOUSLY REGRET WHAT I'VE SAID IN MY PREVIOUS POST. TAKING BACK ALL MY WORDS BUT THEN AGAIN QUARELLING OVER SUCH CHILD'S PLAY ARE JUST A WASTE OF MY TIME. AND IN CASE, YOU'VE IN MIND THAT I STARTED IT FIRST THEN WHY NOT THINK ABOUT THINGS THAT MADE ME BLOG ABOUT ALL OF THOSE. IF YOU ARE THINKING THAT IM ACCUSING YOU, SEARCH YOUR CONSCIENCE AND YOU WILL KNOW THAT IM AT LEAST 80% TRUE. ALSO,LET ME WARN YOU IF YOU WANT TO CONTINUE TO SEE THIS. RMBRRRRRRRRRRR, THERE'S ALWAYS A LIMIT TO EVERYONE'S TOLERANCE LEVEL. YOU WOULDN'T WANT ME TO NAME IT ALL OUT HERE. THE OTHERS ARE NEEDLESS TO SAY. IF YOU REALLY WANT ME TO SAY IT ALL, I CAN.
Monday, January 12, 2009
NO POINT HARPING ON IT ANYMORE, CAUSE EVENTUALLY NOBODY GETS ANYTHING BACK.
i decided to give lecture a miss this few days had been so torturous with school and work can i quit school, like omg i think im going to sch for nth maybe just for the sake of GIRLFRIENDS. thats all, damn! can someone make me bloody hell reflect. I NEEEEEEEEEED MOTIVATION. and i think i've been so busy that i had neglected youuuuuuuuuu. sorry sorry, ya i will make it up to you soon. 16th is approaching again, and that marks the second(: so loooooooking forward yo.
oh man, this song is nice ok. no, practically all their songs are a must to listen(:
Thursday, January 08, 2009
IM WATCHING MOBTV NOWWWWWWWWWWWW.AHHHA ya and im tired alr. i will sleep soon after ranting.
maybe im in no position to say this but this is nonsense, i dont even see you having the slightest guilt at all as long as you think your conscience is clear. it is not unfair at all cause i didnt manipulate anyone to do any judgement. oh man, i dont know but its all disappointment nvm, that one might be none of my business. and talking about helping you. oh man, tell me about it. YA I NEVER HELP YOU cause you are just plain lazy to read the paper in front of you. EVERYTIME LIKE THAT, SAY IT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE MAN I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JUST ACCUSE ME OF DOING THINGS THAT I NEVER DID AND WHEN I DID THEY SAY I NEVER, YA AND YOU CLAIM THE CREDIT. WHATEVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. LIKE I CARE. and yes, we are always living in our own world. aiya, its always wasting my space writting about all these. but i have no choice or not i will explode anytime in front of you. you think i actually wish to do all these. i thought our recent actions will make you realise but it seems helpless. nvm, at least we know we tried our best although it will not be the best or rather you will think its the worse but we will never harm you so pls, dont come to us when you have trouble i mean as a group pls, if everything turns out good share it with us. if its bad, we wont mind too. but dont make it as though you come to us only when you face difficulties and PLEASE IM SURE I HELP YOU BUT maybe you just get the wrong idea to just read the instructions. its not karma or whatever but your attitude towards it. and i know its your birthday tmr.perhaps im bearing grudges, but sorry its not within my tolerance level. way too much really. i write it out here not for everyone to despise you. anw, there's no name. but to let you know i want you to change for the better. all the best. you can dont talk to me if you want. and definitely, I WANT TO WISH YOU AN ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY(:
CAN MY MOUTH DONT TORTURE ME ANYMORE PLS?! I NEED TO K BADLY, IM SERIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. i swear the ulcers are making a fool out of me can, even when i talk it has to be softer so no one knows if im making the right pronouciation.HAHAHA
i just sang a few songs for selection. and i think i sounded badly, NVM TUE I WILL BE GOING AFTER YM'S AMPLIFIER. HAHAHA
OH MAN OH MAN, TMR WILL BE A LONG DAY AND I HATE THURS SO MUCH. IM GETTING MORE AND MORE RESTLESS TO GO TO SCH i neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed some motivation(:
i miss my sister. hopefully she's well in camp and when she comes back i can complain everything to her.