OMG, THE SCARIEST THING HAPPEN TO ME ONCE AGAIN! another stalker from the train all the way to our house void decks i swear qingyu and i were like super terrified, horrified to the maxxxxxx i kept grabbing onto her hand, didnt even let go for 1 minute that man was like walking on the opp side of the road blasting the music and staring back into our eyeballs. it was super scary i even suggested to run home but ya we were too tired to even walk home. lucky enough, love picked up the phone and talked to me on my 3 min walk back home(: and I HAVE TENDERED MY EARLY RESIGNATION. like finally now, im only left with 2 pathetic months to find a new job. i need jobs badly, anyone recommend ok. okok, my eyelids are getting heavy. shall sleep soon, nights.
am i still there with you ? i hope so
Friday, November 28, 2008
finally i can put aside those worries and set it on my main term test which is in 2 weeks time and gosh, i still have to work on sat and sun. forgotten to take leave, how clever can i get too smart to the extent that i didnt even take down the dates for the subs that i will be taking oh man oh man, i think i really need to reflect
and i realise there's something wrong with my ears. i used to listen to soft songs and adjusting the sound system to mid level for now, i think its kind of a nuisance and i like blasting the music till my eardrums burst tell me about it, im going crazy nowadays i guess nothing beats what i can't resist to do. I LOVE IT WHEN MY BABY BROTHER PLAYS ON THE PIANO. cause its melodic even when he plasters his finger on one of the key for too long AND ITS LOUDDDDDD. (:
is it just plain jealousy or are you really in love?
suddenly i recalled my memory upon the auditions that i did last year it wasn't even half of the standard of this ok, this isnt very good afterall but that time was terribly bad could you imagine all thanks to the shivers, but i know i will make it better
i wanted to upload a record but i was too tired to continue waiting i think my rest is more important than anything else on earth now talk to me tmr, goodnight(:
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
this song is damn nice i swear but i sang a little out of tune, spoiler.
migraine's back in action again yo tell me whats the point of going to school when i werent interested? and for the first time i dont feel any push in me to feel the intense that tests were approaching. what haven i been doing these past few weeks in school. oh man, and definitely not looking at hot guys for sure cause there's none. ya got fawwaz right, super handsome to the maxxxxxx. EH, FASTER PRAISE ME. see im like helping you to daydream a little bit more.
psychology classes today was a little sick rather than those boring lecture notes. siva and jasmine should know what im talking about. SO SIVA, YOU USE YOUR FINGER OR FINGER(S) TO SQUEEZE INTO A RHINO.hahahhaa damn sick i swear. im trying not to bring the whole story out keep everyone in suspense(:
i'm getting more and more restless everyday and having that thought of quitting school. imagine lectures were them talking about logical stuffs like throw away your negative thoughts all. oh man, if we can we could. ok, i'm like yawning again i neeeeeed to sleep soon.
ohoh, i forgot to mention just one day before edev lab test. weiguang was super nice to drew out what was tested for him on msn. his patience ah, really unlimited. thanks man!
yes i show you what real love can do i miss you(:
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
did not came back again to upload the photos. sorry sorry. cause i went to sleep right away after blogging anw, dfund today was quite alright but ckt was an ultimate disaster. but luckily, i found my own way through with aggie's and weiling's help. we sure could benefit without even talking. OF COURSE, LOOK WHO'S TALKING MAN! HAHA
i'm feeling so restless recently. i need sufficient sleep badly and exams are like in 2 weeks time. tell me about it when i haven even flipped open some of the books and really stare at it AND WHAT, EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK NOW WAS A DREAD. staying back in sch with all those projects all over the place and yet nothing done. i swear im stress although im crapping all the time like fawwaz right?HAHAHAH ok, enough of sch.
i'm so into old songs recently. KAI SHI DONG LE is a nice song. and its the first song i sang in KBOX. i still remember. omg omg. its really very nice. and i've tried doing a surprise for MY DEAREST ANYING. i guess it failed again after countless tries, nvm i shall do it again
YA, AND NOW I HAVE TO STUDY AFTER BLOGGING:(
the last second photo was a such a letdown. the edit was like omg, UGLY. i will do a better next time when i have the heart and soul hahha, and photobucket's being so considerate today :)
Monday, November 24, 2008
i deserve a smack in the ass cause instead of studying for the test tmr im blogging oh no oh no. ya im going to do it later after this quick post. i doubt it will be fast anw, I WANT TO UPLOAD PHOTOS TAKEN AT WORK YTD(: xueyi and qingyu were the nicest companion at work, seriously,HEY THANKS YO!
where's my motivation to study once again as hard as i want to strive for anything come back to me please, cause after that i want to play doubly hard like how i've studied no regrets, no regrets((: ya, in search of you later. dfund test just now was super screwed. the teacher was like deducting my marks without even answering my qn. ahh, nvm nvm. just blame it on me for not studying.
i dont want to tell you not because i want to let you think that everything's your fault but to let you realise i did give in too. and seriously, when you know that i will react that way and why do it in the first place, i really dont know. ok, im lost. go for what you want, perhaps im not your greatest happiness afterall.
upload the photos tonight need to study now(: wish me luck for this week's tests
Sunday, November 23, 2008
FREDRICK REQUESTED THIS! see, your big name here. i learnt this song in like maybe half an hour its a little not very pleasant to the ear but ya, see for the sake of you okkkkk
oh man im tireddddddddd and ANGRY i was supposed to work till 10 today and she herself didnt inform me and i heard the news through others im staying till 11 and ya, what she replied was why i never ask hello, you are the boss you should take the initiative not me whatever la, im going to end this job soon anyway
exams coming and im damn not prepared howhowhow?! can it be as good as sem 1. and i need my well-deserved break soon cause im seriously super drained out to the maxxxxxxx
ok, i want to sleep alr. goodnight(:
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
jannah's birthday celebration today was in a mess everything was so well-planned but in the end, everywhere's fully booked hey but of course the mega mcspicy burger save the day ya sick of cakes alr yo, have a change and surprised(: thankfully she loves the present chose by mj&me. alot of time but worth it right, and now i haven even finish by pcb jannah's going to help me right? im going to make this quick or not she's going to kill me when im late meeting her tmr term test's coming soon i think im bound to fail, everything's not going into my mind jiayou jiayou and im still skipping lectures now
i heard twillight is nice and the movie's screening soon ahhh, okok date me date me! but it happens to be on my bro's birthday nvm nvm, 19th dec okok rmbr, DATE ME(:
i want to upload some photos taken during work weeks back when stella's with us and im going to miss all of you all everyone's leaving work and i guess we are not going to meetup often anymore can everything just rewind back to the past i dont want them to leave:(
CCN day! but only some photos, making process(:
video is taking too long so i just cancel it that last photo was random but whatever I NEED PHOTO COMMENTS CAUSE I THINK THE PHOTOS THAT I TOOK RECENTLY ARE NOT VERY NICE. OKOK, LEAVE A TAG K. MUCH APPRECIATED THANKS(: OR NOT I THINK I WILL CONTINUE TO POLLUTE ALL OF YOUR EYES.ahhaha okok, sleep nowwwwww
Monday, November 17, 2008
i'm going to make this as quick as possible CAUSE I WANT TO SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP SOON. school today was boring to the maxxxxxxxx and super squeezy with those sec students. HAHAHAHA library is a damn nice place to sleep, with that nice temperature practically just treat it like my own place. and of course, i dont even care about unglamness over there. hahaha slept a little and yup i feel better before going to work talking about work, maybe im going to stop for a while. BUT I NEED SOMEONE TO PROVIDE ME! just anyone. HAHAHA instead of earning money, i kept losing and ya i work for the sake to earn duh
and to my loyal reader who's reading this, IM GOING TO STAY ULTRA SUPER DUPER HAPPY OK. and make sure im the happiest girl on earth dont worry(:
AND TO ANYING: HEY LOVE, IM FINDING TIME TO DATE YOU OUT OK I HOPE WE CAN MEET UP REAL SOOOOOOOOON AND I WILL ALWAYS BE YOUR NO.1 FAN. AS LONG AS I APPRECIATE WILL DO RIGHT? LOVE YOU, SEE YOUUUU(:
okok, i've got a damn nice song to share. like seriously, can make me melt. her voice's sweet.
ok, i dont have any photos to post cause im not using my laptop. nvm nvm, next post there will be(:
Sunday, November 16, 2008
play this before reading(:
ccn was quite a success with of course my girlfriends, did it with all our hearts ok and and and where did the guys in my class die to?(apart from kelly) a hard time lelong-ing and being such a pain in everyone's ass and ears i can just go and sell durians with anthony, right? if you are seeing this my voice's like 10 times louder than him HAHAHHA but we've got scolded for shouting too loud, but ya we continued after that, was work oh manxzxzxxz i could just faint like directly. i overworked and became too stress till i almost cried, YA OK I WILL TAKE CARE AS PROMISED. and ya, from 8 to all the way home i dont even know what i was doing. ok, i looked drunk and i gave the theives an opportunity but none appeared. and blackout on the bus home. super scary i swear DEAREST qingyu was waking me up and i couldnt even felt anything until the consecutive times. walked home after that can just kill me ok. my legs were super wobbly but still alright, reached home as soon as my legs could take. and i dont even know what i was talking about until she told me this morning. work again tmr was such a bore and instead of earning i kept losing money cause of the changing shift thing talking about that can just make me pissed maybe its my fault for not counting the cash properly before changing shifts but i was too tired WHATWHATWHAT. and i have to pay for the loss when i dont even know whether im the one who lost it. any case, after next week i dont think im working on weekdays
although sometimes i felt like rewinding back to the past, however its useless now cause i know you won't feel the same anymore... its ok, all i can do now is to get back on my feet and try to forget. whatever i did i guess its just a rash decision i was feeling damn lousy after doing that but i've no choice cause i dont want to feel more like an owner than a lover to you, get it? anw, i dont think you will see this. even if you are, i know you will be feeling indifferent. just pretend you see nothing alright, i just need some personal space to vent it out. it really pains when you've mentioned about all those moments and times when i didnt appreciate when you dont even know i've use my heart and soul to really remember every single date we've gone through. nvm, its ok if you dont understand what im trying to imply. asking you to give up wasnt also my choice but a way that you lead me to, yes im selfish to make my own decision again. but you've alr shown me that this is not love anymore but possesion you've left me with no choice but to end up like that sorry for wasting your efforts to hate me for saying all of those, like what you've said you will forget in time. and i hope you really do. if i were to be given another chance again, will i go for it? my brain's empty to think about all of this now. but then again i thank you for everything
i think my current hairstyle look like ahlianxzxzxxz damn ugly colour laaaa. ok, sleeping after talking to someone.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
oh man, its such a coincidence. i just blogged about the lost of my card ytd and the office called and said they've got mine with them. and i must really thank the 2 guys that brought them back. lessons are such a bore and my countless yawns really can make me fall alseep damn easily i'm too tired to continue typing, AFTER TYPING SO MUCH AT COM PROG. that sub totally suck la, ultimate to the maxxxxxxxxxxx ok MIGRAINE'S SUCH A TROUBLEMAKER. im having it for like the past few days, but nobody cared. ahhh, whatever ok, photos from QIANYU'S BIRTHDAY08 up now, kind of late though and 2 months late the rest are in my phone upload again next time any photos that you want, text me ok.
the 2nd last photo looks as though im wearing a wig ya ok, my eyelids are getting heavier i shall sleep now
Everything's going wrong right now
But i know it will be over soon, right?
BAD LUCK LEAVE ME ALONE, PLEASE!
bless me with luck that my matric card will be in the office and if its so, i thank that kind soul with all my heart. im like getting so impatient to get to sch tmr and just for that card, i've got scolded by mummy ya, i know its my fault but i didnt pray for it to be gone right. im getting so worried and the best part is, i've lost it last thurs and only today i realised its missing oh man, im getting so dumb like seriously. i never felt so much of wanting to go sch so early before. ok, maybe this works to force me to attend those awesome lectures, ya awesome with those not able to pronouce words like VOLTAGE properly.
i thank you for those 3 words which really help me lighten my load alot i've tried wanting to forgive you but i just couldnt cause you've lied im not trying to play hard to get and i've told you my true feelings and guess we wouldnt be as close as last time to share our problems and all i wish you all the best to salvage your r/s ,try to give in ok and possible enough i hope you can last long with her
everything's getting so complicated when it just started out with a dot only its just human nature to make things worse when actually its a minor matter it wasnt even a whole to start with;
Monday, November 10, 2008
and here i come again nagging about school im sorry cause all these times im always revolving ard these 2 tasks in life sooooooooo boring yo, I NEED DATES AND MONEY BADLY! and to ppl who are concerned about my previous post, im not angry over such useless person alr. although i was hot headed at first, HAHAHAH BUT COME TO THINK OF IT IF IM PISSED DOESN'T THAT MAKES ME CHILDISH TOO? and moreover, its just for that PANDAN LEAF, totally not worth my time.
so many things just come at one go sometimes, i just want everything to end tonight. all those unwanted love, attention whatsoever makes me go insane, seriously can all these freaking nonsensical stuff stop right now? im unhappy with everything. overloaded stress makes me go haywire and slapping my braincells upside down. its just a waste of my youth again to think about all these
i can't let it drag too long everything's bothering me, i guess i am trying my very best for everything now and hopefully it works out something even if nothing comes out of it i know i've tried so pls, dont force or threaten me again. im sick and tired of it already. even if you dont know how much efforts i've put in, but you must at least know that i really did my very best to overcome every obstacle that is foreseen i really thank for your understanding and whatever you've promise its for yourself not me im just trying to help you, and in any case, you who had made a mistake should also make an effort not to commit again and not for me to remind you over and over endlessly having said so much, i guess everything's going to end like that song soon my throat is killing me with intense pain even those lozenges can do minimal help or rather no impact at all damn, im going to make up for my sleeping time as well as to study for my test tmr. cannot fail, do well do well. yes i can right ya, im talking to myself again somehow, i think im suffering from split personality upload photos and i will be done from blogging ok, im tired alr. end here then(: a better day ahead tmr, possible?
MINGJING'S BIRTHDAY AT SEOUL G. and i love photobucket today for uploading it quick within a minute