NO STALKER FOR TODAY! YAY! WORLD PEACE(: hopefully after so long that pirate stalker wont follow me alr. omgoodness! he's super scary la. scarely on one fine sunny night, he just tapped me on my shoulder and take off his eyepatch and you will see maggots dropping all over from his eye. this is so dramatic. but there's really a stalker or am i imagining too much? haha. funny qianyu, you can imagine 3 times huhhuhhuh?! thats pathetic. hopefully everything will go well for me. and tmr should be a happy day as seen for the past 2 months. but i will have to pass the time myself with work tmr and maybe that someone might be playing outside or who knows might had found another one? its ok. i think im doing quite fine. its just certain things. shall blogged again tmr. my brain cells are dying. i cannot think any much to blog.
this meant so much to me. its time to let go. why are my senses still not awaken? why do i have to do much just to hurt me when i dont even know who am i now? showing attitude and all those crap nonsense. seriously, what am i up to? its just isnt right. thanks to those who went through the ordeal with me. and yes, i will try my best to let go. cause its seriously hurting too much and too much to be worthy of my love. i hate my life now. so what if i had came to this end? is the whole world going to end for me? there's a lot more for me to think about. of course, the best remedy to forget all these still depend on me.
im sorry to the ppl who i had offended all these while. will get back to my normal self asap. ppl, pls give me time. i promise i will do what i am supposed to.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
i will have to update everyday if possible as requested. today is a damn special day yo! that pirate didnt stalk me, luckily. and hopefully this will continue all the way. he can go home and dig his treasures. super scary la. imagine he takes out his eyepatch and stare right into my face. omgoodness. damn gross. who knows he's just outside my door knocking.ahhh! had a discussion with xin just now on the phone just so we realised, you had changed. we are very disappointed in you or rather we are no longer as closed as we were you became oblivious to what is happening is it becuase of the stress you are having dont worry to trouble us cause we will always be there for you or maybe you are cold towards us alr i mean you made things quite unchangable sorry if these meant harsh
now everything spoils my mood. and i dont want to upload any photos for all of you. IM SO IRRITATED! i will do it soon k. my blog seems very wordy.hahhaa
I'll build a wall around my heart says: KAY KAY, ANGELA LOVE YOU QIANYU :D
see shes so nice(: and ppl dont get the wrong idea again. this is not to boast. but this is to show i've got such a wonderful friend who always crap with me all these while. thats why i love her so much.
i suddenly fell in love with the song zi lian again. damn nice know. damn nice. ahhh! i always mixed up the names of zi lian and zi wo cui mian. hahaha. 2 diff. things i know. but i dont know why also.
now i do not even know whats the use of everything; just found sth in my photobucket to share. i shall delete whatever i had said. i will upload some photos.
KBOX ON VDAY
EVERYONE MEET TIFFANY YO!
SHE SAYS MY FINGERS ARE PUNY. PLS DISAGREE WITH HER. ITS NOT LA.
I NEED TO SLEEP NOW. GOOOOOOOOOOOOODNIGHT!
Monday, February 25, 2008
it seems pretty obvious that you are still not getting over with what i had said. maybe i had really hurt you that badly from hiding all these from you all the while but you never know that i did it for the sake of you ok, really. like what you said NINE yrs if friendship you think i bear to just destroy it like this. sometimes i felt quite threatened when you always mentioned how close we were and i always feel very guilty for not telling you everything. try to understand me sometimes k. similarly to what you had said, keep him in a corner of your heart and automatically after a while you will be able to forget. i really appreciate your comment that much and thats what im doing now. i swear i will not drop a single tear because of someone thats unworthy of. im really sorry if i had hidden things from you all the while. but you are still one great friend i will rmbr till the end(:
and like what i just said i had not really given up on that past tragedy. how could i just pull another person down to torture with me and treat her as a substitute im sorry if my actions made you all realise that but isn't like how i treat my closer friends. maybe its just that we clicked well tgt and you ppl think that we are so much in love with one another. fine, if you want to think it that way so be it. as long as i know, IM PERFECTLY STRAIGHTER THAN THE METAL RULER. and what hurts me the most is my closest friend actually think that way too and in front of me she's trying to be ignorant to the question. i really dont like this k. even if the others suspect i wont even bother, but not you. or maybe because we had not been talking to each other for damn long and result to these. if you really had sth to tell me, reason in out in front of my face. i dont like this kind of hide and seek.
most importantly, i want to thank this wonderful girl of my life, RUIXIN! thanks for helping me through thius period of hard time. really really sorry when i tried to ignore your advices all. but you are still a nice friend. GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EXAMS! meetup soon(:
its definitely not nice for being accused by people when you dont even know where had you done wrong, or are you all done with just jealousy?
Friday, February 22, 2008
I LOVE ANGELA! [she claims that whenever i say i love someone, i am insincere. see i showed the whole wide world k] did not blog for soooooooo long! sorrrrryyy! so many things happen in just a blink of an eye. and all are obviously not very good. no more counting downs that made me feel very excited. no more meeting ups that will make my day no more enjoying moments that i could blog about anymore. no more good memories that i will recount upon everything had just ended. maybe its my fault. but since its over, it will be no one's fault but i just had to move on with life. i think im doing quite fine with it(: hopefully. i'm so glad to have these friends ard in my life. THANKS TO ALL! had sort out everything and i know that everything will not go back to square 1 again. maybe its my wishful thinking all this while. i just want all these to get out of my mind like right away. not worth it. and i will just keep you in this lil dark corner of my heart which i won't bother to find again. thanks for the memories. although sometimes i showed some dissatisfaction of what you had done but i still support you. i know it sounds a lil contradicting and you might be thinking no one asked you to compromise that much. but if i didn't, who whould right? im so grateful that you entered my life at least once. i dont blame you. really. i will promise whatever you had said to me. dont think you will be reading these too. i just hope someday you would realise that all i had done is for you. maybe from then, you would understand. dont be afraid that its too late. cause you will never know only after you had tried.
Friday, February 15, 2008
the greatest thing you ever learn is just to love and to be loved in return. maybe somethings are really not meant to be PS. i love you
above sentences doesn't really meant anything but maybe to some it does reflect a great impact.
so tiffany was my valentine ytd. watched PS i love you with her. nice show(: but the woman beside us was irritating. not picnic know?! aftermath was kbox at hougang. to sum it up all, she made my day.
photos will be posted up soon. im feeling a lil lazy thats why.
Thursday, February 14, 2008
editting failed:( MY VALENTINE TMR WILL BE TIFFANYYYYYYYYY!
LETS ALL JUST WISH THAT HER MISSION WILL
GOOD LUCK TIFF.
EVERYONE WISHES YOU GOOD LUCK HERE(:
OKOK. I HAVE TO STOP BLOGGING NOW.
HAPPY ADVANCE VDAY EVERYONE!
dont think i got the time to blog anymore this week.
Saturday, February 02, 2008
wah! i cannot control anymore alr la.
you are really getting on my nerves.
IT IS TOTALLY NONE OF MY BUSINESS WHATS YOUR
RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND AT ALL OK.
YOU DONT HAVE TO PULL ME DOWN.
I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU CONFESSED TO HER OR
WHATSOEVER AND I MUST BE BLIND AND I MEAN REALLLY
REALLLY REALLY BLIND TO KNOW YOU AND MUST BE
SUPER SUPER SUPER DEAF TO HEAR WHAT YOU HAVE
TO SAY. I DIDNT KNOW YOU WILL DO ALL THESE SHIT
BEHIND MY BACK .MOREOVER WE ARE JUST NORMAL
AND I MEAN NORMAL FRIENDS LA. OR RATHER HI BYE
FRIENDS AND NOW NOT EVEN FRIENDS! BASTARD!
I DONT CARE WHATS HER OPINION OF ME AT ALL.
CAUSE SHES YOUR GIRLFRIEND NOT MINE.I AM SUPER
STUPID TO BELIEVE ALL THOSE CRAP THAT YOU WERE
TELLING ME ALL ALONG. THE WORSE THING THAT
HAPPENED IN MY LIFE.
YA, I REALLY DONT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOUR GF
SAYS. " that qianyu he likes is so ugly, i dont mind losing him
to her!" THIS IS QUOTED FROM HER BLOG.SO WHAT IF IM
UGLY? PLS LA ITS NOT AS THOUGH YOU LOOK ANY
BETTER AND I DONT EVEN LIKE HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE
CAN. NONSENSE! I CAN SAY THE AUNTIE IN THE KOPI
TIAM SERVING COFFEE LOOKS MUCH BETTER THAN YOU
x100000. YOU CANNOT KEEP YOUR BF BY YOUR SIDE ITS
BECAUSE YOU ARE WAY TOOOOOOOOOOOO
DEMANDING ALR AND I DID NOT EVEN SEDUCE HIM OR
WHATEVER SHIT K. DONT BLAME OTHERS WHEN YOU
CANNOT EVEN HAVE HIM BY YOUR SIDE. SERVE YOU
RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!I DIDNT WANT TO BLOG THIS. BUT I