I don't know what i'm thinking I just got out from one and now getting into it again. can someone like help me. i know i've to give up, be strong all. i know there aren't any words to help. but its just the heart thats telling you that you can't give up. probably it had really been too fast. this one month might be short but i guess i can consider it to be one of the best beautiful memory in life. and it ended all just like that. i know i have to take responsibility of what i've said. even if its out of rashness, i did it. everything can't be change and even time was to turn back, i would do the same thing. i know its plain stupid and all but it really shows how much disappointment you caused me. and all those promises are they in vain? i'm hurt really.
and cause i didn't kept in touch with you, it doesn't mean that im not bothered with you. but its just me not wanting you to get frustrated over me. i hope you understand. if there's one day, i'm really willing to try.
Thursday, April 01, 2010
It had only been a week and all these are like coming to an end. come on man, i mean who doesn't want to be sweet and all when its honeymoon right. but i really got camp. yes i guess i didnt spend enough time with you. your feelings faded a little, you know how hurt am i. and all those efforts that i put in to show that im serious, all those like for nothing. tell me about it. and when we talked on the phone, we have very little things to say about when we text, its all about random stuffs. yeah, normal friends. and we cannot talk online either, we lack of alot of communication. yes, you freaking made me damn sad alright. i didnt want this either. why must all this be like that. everytime when i tried to put my all and my best, in the end i am the one that got the biggest impact. I HATE THIS. I HATE THE WORLD. I HATE MYSELF. so what are we now? i really don't know.