so i guess i've made a beautiful mistake in my life and that is to move on with our life without one another. and i hope you are doing well. of course, find a hot girl and we shall go couple dates next time(:
ANYING FLEW OFF TODAY. I MANAGE TO SEE HER FOR THE LAST HALF AN HOUR BEFORE SHE WENT OFF. I HOPE SHE LIKES WHAT I GIVE, AND YES IM WAITING FOR YOU TO BE BACK! AND APPARENTLY SHE HAVE NOT TEXT ME IF SHE REACH THERE ALR NOT BUT I GUESS SO. BY ANY CHANCE, IF YOU SEE THIS DARLING. I HOPE YOU WILL BE WELL AND TALE CARE OF YOURSELF. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE TRIP IN MARCH(((:
and i'm having a throat infection now which means i am forced to talk softer. plus point right to be more gentle. he's cooking liangteh for me, omg damn sweet can. HAHHAHA i feel so loved.
sissy's birthday today(: i wish that everything will go well for her throughout this yr.
its been years since i last blog i guess. and somethings are better to be left unsaid i dont wish to explain any further cause ultimately it will still be my fault i dont know why. but life is just a funny thing and freaking hell, it has alw been a bitch to me.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I've lost to my determination and love. no use thinking so much cause at the very end, the one getting hurt is me. There will no longer be people who tries to understand. all they think is for themselves, good job really
It is not that i don't cherish But its just that i have to stop caring from this minute onwards. What are the quarrels for. Initially, i thought i really could forget. Why do my side effects always kicking so late. and it happens when i'm all alone here coop up in the room. i dont know if you are trying to get me jealous or whatsoever deep down in my heart, you know the answer for everything. you understand me too well i need to forget. please help me. dont come into my life anymore. i dont want to see you again i need to avoid. thats the best excuse that i can give. cause without contacting you at all, i guess i can really let go of everything. THANKS FOR SCOLDING ME AND WAKING MY SENSES. IM REALLY THAT IGNORANT BITCH THAT YOU'VE MENTIONED. I KNOW IM STRONG AND I CAN DO IT. I GUESS I'VE DID IT PRETTY WELL.
REMIND QIANYU THAT SHE HAS TO FORGET EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THAT PAST ONE YR. BE IT HAPPY OR SAD. THERE'S NOTHING TO CRY, YOU WILL NOT BE ANY PRETTIER. I MUST NOT BE BOTHERED, I CANNOT INTERFERE, I DONT WANT TO BE DISTRACTED AND AFFTECTED. EVERYTHING'S ENDED. NO POINT DREAMING ANY FURTHER YOU KNOW. CAUSE IN THE END, I GUESS NOBODY WILL PITY YOU. AND NOW, ONLY YOU YOURSELF HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. NO MORE NONSENSE.
i'm supposed to my project anyway but i've got distracted.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
Well 2009's over. and i hope the coming year would be a better one yes i know it will be.
that one year with K was nice, i just thought that sometimes we just couldn't take things for granted especially kindness. and now i know, even if this is a cold war period or whatsoever. its just rain after shine. everything will be alright. you were the love of my life. thanks for being there when my previous relationship gone bust and all. Thanks for being the ever so forgiving boyf for tolerating all my nonsense and crap. Maybe we have all had enough already, time to move on.
And now, i'm comtemplating my another chance of love. Should i or not? Thanks for those words, it really lightens my burden alot. and really, i will take it into consideration. You've been one nice guy, i just think that you derserve someone better. Afterall, i'm nothing.
my ever so wonderful sisters.Although we've drifted alot this past one year, but i know we make it a point to contact each other and get updated. Last long for your relationships, ya! i realised we alr always taking turns to get attached. tell me if they bully you,HAHAHA. ok see you soon. i know this year would be a better one for us. our overseas trip that we are looking forward for. and this past 10 years are not for nothing. AY and YX you are not forgotten.
i've been with clique for over the past 2 years. and everything was going on fine except the part where our group is left with only 6 people. for these other 5 wonderful girls, i really thank you all everything this past 1 year. i've guessed we grew closer. all the gossips and everything, to clothes to boys and even to our shitting time. never regretted. as for dilys,priska and joyce, thanks for being there too as part of the clique and still you are one of us. i know there are some misunderstandings and i know even if im willing to try to get close i will be labelled. but yes, i still like the year when all of us got together as one.
ok, there are more people whom i want to thank. I JUST HOPE 2010 WILL BE THE YEAR FOR ME. and i want all of us to get our love soooooooooooon