I've lost to my determination and love.
no use thinking so much
cause at the very end, the one getting hurt is me.
There will no longer be people who tries to understand.
all they think is for themselves, good job really





不能握的手
从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着
依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手
却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有 最永久

It is not that i don't cherish
But its just that i have to stop caring from this minute onwards.
What are the quarrels for.
Initially, i thought i really could forget.
Why do my side effects always kicking so late.
and it happens when i'm all alone here coop up in the room.
i dont know if you are trying to get me jealous or whatsoever
deep down in my heart, you know the answer for everything.
you understand me too well
i need to forget.
please help me.
dont come into my life anymore.
i dont want to see you again
i need to avoid. thats the best excuse that i can give.
cause without contacting you at all, i guess i can really let go of everything.
THANKS FOR SCOLDING ME AND WAKING MY SENSES.
IM REALLY THAT IGNORANT BITCH THAT YOU'VE MENTIONED.
I KNOW IM STRONG AND I CAN DO IT.
I GUESS I'VE DID IT PRETTY WELL.

REMIND QIANYU THAT SHE HAS TO FORGET EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN THAT PAST ONE YR. BE IT HAPPY OR SAD. THERE'S NOTHING TO CRY, YOU WILL NOT BE ANY PRETTIER. I MUST NOT BE BOTHERED, I CANNOT INTERFERE, I DONT WANT TO BE DISTRACTED AND AFFTECTED. EVERYTHING'S ENDED. NO POINT DREAMING ANY FURTHER YOU KNOW. CAUSE IN THE END, I GUESS NOBODY WILL PITY YOU.
AND NOW, ONLY YOU YOURSELF HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. NO MORE NONSENSE.




i'm supposed to my project anyway but i've got distracted.

Well 2009's over. and i hope the coming year would be a better one
yes i know it will be.

that one year with K was nice, i just thought that sometimes we just couldn't take things for granted especially kindness. and now i know, even if this is a cold war period or whatsoever. its just rain after shine. everything will be alright. you were the love of my life. thanks for being there when my previous relationship gone bust and all. Thanks for being the ever so forgiving boyf for tolerating all my nonsense and crap. Maybe we have all had enough already, time to move on.

And now, i'm comtemplating my another chance of love. Should i or not? Thanks for those words, it really lightens my burden alot. and really, i will take it into consideration. You've been one nice guy, i just think that you derserve someone better. Afterall, i'm nothing.

my ever so wonderful sisters.Although we've drifted alot this past one year, but i know we make it a point to contact each other and get updated. Last long for your relationships, ya! i realised we alr always taking turns to get attached. tell me if they bully you,HAHAHA. ok see you soon. i know this year would be a better one for us. our overseas trip that we are looking forward for. and this past 10 years are not for nothing. AY and YX you are not forgotten.

i've been with clique for over the past 2 years. and everything was going on fine except the part where our group is left with only 6 people. for these other 5 wonderful girls, i really thank you all everything this past 1 year. i've guessed we grew closer. all the gossips and everything, to clothes to boys and even to our shitting time. never regretted. as for dilys,priska and joyce, thanks for being there too as part of the clique and still you are one of us. i know there are some misunderstandings and i know even if im willing to try to get close i will be labelled. but yes, i still like the year when all of us got together as one.

ok, there are more people whom i want to thank.
I JUST HOPE 2010 WILL BE THE YEAR FOR ME.
and i want all of us to get our love soooooooooooon