I'm like so alone at home on saturday night. online-ing my ass off. SOMEHOW I MISS WORK:( yuppie, and then he's having steamboat dinner tonight. oh man, so tempting. i also want ok, hinthint! HAHAHHA fix your lappie soon yo. i miss talking to you online, really. ahhhhhhhhhh, and we've been texting quite little alr. but its alright, we get to meetup anw, good good! YES, IM LIKE AT THE HAPPIEST MOMENT OF LIFE NOW. I HOPE NOTHING WILL HAPPEN, REALLY. LET IT LASTTTTTTTTT PLS.
YES I WANT, AND THAT IS A STRAIGHT CUT ANSWER. 25TH MARCH, I LOVE.
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
And i hope everything is going on well fine, although its a little tough but i know you can do it.
I MISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS YOU OK! and you are not awake. i dont even know what im blogging about. HAHHAHAHA. yeap. and im freaking lobster cannnn. like seriously.
ok this is a freaking random post. and i dont even know what im talking about. excited about tonight!
seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you lovelies.
Friday, March 19, 2010
So many times of coming over to my place without any complaints. I'm touched, really. so today im going to have a change. picking him up from work. but the thing is: i don't even know where national muesuem is. OMG, AND YES IM A STREET IDIOT. adds to that, i dont know how am i supposed to give a surprise without leaking it out. And i've to like get out of the house soon, or not i will be really late. (:
Life is a maze and love is a riddle.
And for you, i really would try my best even if it takes the longest time. i hope you would wait. Thanks love.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Some people just don't know where they stand really. i'm freaking pissed and not cause i felt that you are petty. you are a total bitch seriously. i dont care if you see this. im like that, damn straightforward. if you want to fight with me, just get lost. cause im not interested in you afterall. who are you, just some small peanut fighting over idk what. hey pls, you can't travel back 1 yr ago to destroy the memories ok. i bet he's your first. if you are going to be that possessive, my god idk how are you going to last with him. so what if im in the position to say anything. not my lover, but my friend. youuuuuuuuu, YOU MAKE ME LOOK DOWN ON YOU ONLY. whatever, i can't be bothered. its cause you are either jealous or you have no confidence yourself.
OK, ENOUGH OF THE SCOLDINGS BUT SOMEHOW I REALLY HOPE YOU SEE THIS. DONT WORRY LA, IM NOT GOING TO SNATCH FROM YOU. YOU CAN HAVE HIM ALL BY YOURSELF OK.
yeah man, i liked what you said. and im going to prove that i can. really, cause.... SECRET. "i'll wait for you k. don't care how long. i'll hold you till the hurt is gone." this will be my motivation from now on. (:
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I wanted to text you but i have to control myself. there's no more messenger history, so i dont have to bother myself for reading so much.
so anw, i was feeling all damn down. i was making a casual remark and he really came down all the way. my god, such a sweet. thanks for the comfort and shoulder, it helps alot. ok i guess everything went well. AND A SECRET BETWEEN US TOO.
i am trying my very best to forget within that deadline. from there, i think i can really move on. i believe that true love still exist no matter what.
i've blogged so cheers!
Monday, March 15, 2010
I'm back to blogging and i hope this time round i'm consistent.
I GAVE IT ALL UP BUT I'M TAKING BACK MY LOVE. TOO MUCH THINGS HAPPEN ALL AT A SUDDEN. I FELT LOST, REALLY. SO I GUESS THAT BREAKDOWN WAS NOT FOR SYMPATHY BUT REALLY I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. I KNOW I'VE BEEN PREACHING ON THE SAME SUBJECT FOR DONT KNOW HOW MANY MILLION YRS ALTHOUGH I KEPT SAYING I WANTED TO STOP AND ALL. THIS TIME ROUND I PROMISE. ITS THE LAST. I'VE ALW BEEN NOT HONEST ABOUT MY OWN FEELINGS. ITS NOT THAT I WANT TO HIDE IT FROM YOU BUT JUST I THINK IT DOESN'NT MAKE A DIFFERENCE CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DONT WANT TO GET BACK.
and the 4 months after we broke up, its like... i dont know how to describe. we've been holding on and i kept trying to shun you. ok, and it really works cause you got a girlf. yourself. i thought it was goood but who know i really burst out crying. at that moment of time, i really felt that there's nobody in this world who wants me anymore. but i guess, i was wrong. i should let you go, i cannot be that selfish. i'm just too used to your existence and now with another person ok i guess you are happier? i hope you would really cherish her more than ever. cause thats the best repay i get. actually i can tell you, i'm not really happy that you had found your another half cause the past 3 months after we broke up you kept coming back for me. idk your feelings are which. its like, ok contradicting. BUT WHATEVER, ALL THE BEST.
and thanks to you, i guess i felt better after you moving on. so i can open to another relationship. i always felt sorry towards you. there's another person in mind. (:
i hope i really can forget everything fully. you know one of us has to be sacrificed. since you've chosen to love her, ya i should give up hope too. i sincerely wish you would last long with her. good luck.