I'm back to blogging and i hope this time round i'm consistent.

I GAVE IT ALL UP BUT I'M TAKING BACK MY LOVE.
TOO MUCH THINGS HAPPEN ALL AT A SUDDEN.
I FELT LOST, REALLY.
SO I GUESS THAT BREAKDOWN WAS NOT FOR SYMPATHY BUT REALLY I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I KNOW I'VE BEEN PREACHING ON THE SAME SUBJECT FOR DONT KNOW HOW MANY MILLION YRS ALTHOUGH I KEPT SAYING I WANTED TO STOP AND ALL.
THIS TIME ROUND I PROMISE. ITS THE LAST.
I'VE ALW BEEN NOT HONEST ABOUT MY OWN FEELINGS.
ITS NOT THAT I WANT TO HIDE IT FROM YOU BUT JUST I THINK IT DOESN'NT MAKE A DIFFERENCE CAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DONT WANT TO GET BACK.

and the 4 months after we broke up, its like...
i dont know how to describe.
we've been holding on and i kept trying to shun you.
ok, and it really works cause you got a girlf. yourself.
i thought it was goood but who know i really burst out crying.
at that moment of time, i really felt that there's nobody in this world who wants me anymore.
but i guess, i was wrong.
i should let you go, i cannot be that selfish.
i'm just too used to your existence and now with another person ok i guess you are happier?
i hope you would really cherish her more than ever.
cause thats the best repay i get.
actually i can tell you, i'm not really happy that you had found your another half cause the past 3 months after we broke up you kept coming back for me.
idk your feelings are which.
its like, ok contradicting.
BUT WHATEVER, ALL THE BEST.

and thanks to you, i guess i felt better after you moving on.
so i can open to another relationship.
i always felt sorry towards you.
there's another person in mind.
(:

i hope i really can forget everything fully.
you know one of us has to be sacrificed.
since you've chosen to love her, ya i should give up hope too.
i sincerely wish you would last long with her.
good luck.