06.Èç¹ûÎÒ±ä³É»ØÒä - Tank


this is a song from my friend's blog

and if i really became your memory...
play this and read at the same time


Obviously my heart has not given up.
its still dreaming with me.
i know its impossible already,
but just let me dream a little more
so it won't hurt so much

all those things that we did
all the places that we went
all the quarrels and happy memories that we have been through together are nonetheless sweet

i know its damn stupid of me living in such denial waiting for you to carry me in your arms and giving me a pat on my head.
i can only act strong and pretend nothing had happened in front of my friends.
it's not that i'm not treating them as the best now
but i guess some things are best kept in silent.
thanks all for your words but i know it myself.
i am just stubborn to accept it.

for now, all this will be in history.
i know whatever i do will not gain back your love
so i won't waste my time anymore.
i will try doing the things that we've wanted to did together
and reverting back to my old self
but this time round not for that glimpse of hope and just to gain back confidence in myself
i know i can do it

i have so many things to tell you
but will you still be there to listen to me?
currently, i dont know how i should face you
i can only learn how to avoid and taking everything by stride.

i dont know whats the sudden change when its like an excuse
we can always compromise and talk nicely.
but it doesn't seem that way anymore
maybe your feelings had faded
or maybe im not pretty to you anymore
i really dont know
this one yr is really great to have you around
i will keep you in a dark corner of my heart and you will be my very good friend(:

本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去 雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我本
来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我

i thank you, my boyfriend.
i think its really time for me to give up and carry on with my life
but i believe in that 5 yrs promise, really.

i think i've spent quite long typing this
my tears kept blurring my vision.


and now, i think i'm starting to get back on track
but still my health is getting from bad to worse
my heart problems are returning to me
i'm having stomach upsets every now and then
my appetite has become smaller each day.
i want to eat more but nvm, idk why.
good way to lose weight
but don't learn, its wrong
cause exercise is still the most practical way(:
[i've learnt already:)]