now you know how you've hurt me.
am i prepared to forgive all your explanations?
i don't deny i feel like paying you back double of what i saw
but then again, i know its freaking childish for me to do that
you know the consequences for doing that.

[all these are just written for MYSELF to see]

my eyes became freaking swollen and its too hard for me to close my eyes and rest.
i just took a shot of it to see how bloodshot it was and i thought it was nice to share it on my blog.




hen hen ku.wma - guo cai jie




突然不想再看见你
敷衍的那张脸
不想听你说的谎言

我狠狠哭了一整个冬天
把你留在昨天做纪念
一个人反反复复去想 去沉淀 终于了解
爱狠狠哭完的那一天
我也该忘记你的脸
我就在一念之间 看见了春天

这世界仍然还是很美
我一个人静静听着音乐
偶尔 想起你
还是会掉眼泪
泪水全都是真正的体会

why did i even shed unforgiven tears in the first place?
i swear i'm dumb.

sorry i cant help but to think that i'm the disturbance in your life.

I WANT TO MEET ANYING NOW AND HUG HERRRRRRRR
I MISS YOU DEAR(:


AND TO HAIQI:
thanks for being the sweetest sister on earth to let me vent my anger on you.
cause i totally can't hold it within myself anymore
and i think this is the first time you seeing so much of me.
thanks (: