my throat's hurting like shit.
i need to spend my money on lozenges again.
see, i need to put in extra effort and i'm so going to kbox on thurs.
madness, like FINALLY!
new day of the week.
started of with tut. i think she can only teach in small groups.
and i only her lesson in tut best(:
after that was lecture, i kind of think that our class seems more united after that incident.
thanks fishing rod. hahaha.
i was waiting for class to end at 5 and it dragged a lil.
went to priska's hse, its super cosy to the maxxxx la.
her sis's nice to intro her non-living friends to me.hahahha
so cute la. but they are both pretty(:
went home and now im dead beat but i want to continue one 1 more point.
i want to comment on this anonymous person.

i know i will be critisizing you thats why i wont want to name you.
no one's forcing you to take the lead.
and just because you want others to look at us the same way, we have to compromise our decisions BECAUSE OF YOU.
im so not going to do that ok.
you volunteered in the first place and pls pls pls do your job well.
i know i cannot scold you right in front of your face cause you are older.
but hello, basic respect demanded ok.
we are not your dogs, or rather me alone.
everytime i was being commanded by you here and there, even if you are not tired of saying. im sick of hearing it.
if you are really going to continue to do this, dont expect me to treat you any nice.
you will really get it from me ok.
i hope you will know who you are.
pls reflect.

我只要找到另一個感覺　
相信明天一定有誰　
能給我安慰　
原來就在我周圍

im lazy to upload any photos.
maybe the next post.

there's so much to update till i dont know where to start with.
ok, maybe orientation.
i know im kind of behind time but still at least i blogged ok.
orientation was fun, or rather i hope everyday would be like that.
cause cause cause we will not face those boring lecture notes.
i really cannot recognise them.hahaha.
ok, link-less. back to orientation.
the first person in the class i made friend with was YANMING!
i swear she was super cute. really.
oh, and i realised the glenn that i knew when i was in p3 appears to be in engine too.
somehow i cannot rmbr what really happen but it all adds up to fun. every single one of them.
first day of sch was a total maze.
everybody seems so blur. the sch was damn damn damn big to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
i had been going out non stop.
mon out with anying like finally
watched definitely maybe. not a very nice show but kind of sweet for some that commented.
yes yes, kind of agree but still it made me yawn countlessly.
cannot rmbr what happen on tue.
my memory is getting worser can. ahhh! its irritating.
caught hottie and nottie with laogong on wed.
i hate that long long bus rides which seems a lil boring and my butt hurts after sitting for like 46 min. going out with her makes my day(:
not in the mood to take photo on that day, so cannot post.
she was like laughing damn loudly in the theatre like no one's business but i enjoyed her accompany. send her home after that and went home like ard 7 plus.
today had been such a long day.
9-6. like omgness, 9 long hours in sch.
circuit tut is fun. i like that lesson alot(:
after that was lecture, for that moment i splurt out a few bad comments.
i know im evil but who would not pay attn to that sleepyhead that distracts me from my sight.
wherever he goes, he can sleep even if its just a wall(claimed by his classmates)
in the end, i did not take the photo.
so glenn, im not bad ok.
but lectures are always fun with 06 ppl ard.
after that was 3h of lab.
madness, yanming was laughing with me non stop throughout the whole lesson.
hahhhhaa"po-jeck, isue"
yay! my teacher make my day.
im being a nice student for praising that his lessons were so interesting that i never want to leave my eyes from the screen. crap, i lied.
but he was one nice man.
as usual, i shouted in class again cause i felt so stupid for not knowing how to adjust that meter.
goodness, time to open my eyes and concentrate in class.
meeting ry tmr!
hopefully im able to complete my work.
i shall upload 1 photo for orientation.
the rest maybe later or tmr.



06 and 07 group photo

this is the link for the rest of the photos:
http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=0EbNm7lm3bsXSQ

orientation was kind of fun with the great help of our 2 beloved mentors, wendy and khalil.
and of course with them ard our orientation had never been once boring except for the first day.
i dont feel like blogging anymore.
so i shall post photo instead(:




will blog tmr.
i want to sleeeeeeeeeeeep.
work again will be boring once again:(

a few more hours to my new chapter of life.
im starting sch again after like half a yr of hol.
i know i used to keep saying i miss sch alot and stuff, but lately that doesnt seem to be the case.
hopefully i will get used to it and forget about some stuffs which im suppose to and get on with life.
good luck to me as well as the rest who will be going through their new life tmr.
oh ya, not forgetting those who are alr experiencing poly life. jiayou ya.

although somethings are not meant to be, but still i know i have to carry on with my life and maybe on the way i will just slowly forget. im not you who will satisfy ppl without thinking for yourself. sometimes treat yourself a little better. got no offence what right. dont have to care if you would neglect me or not cause im sure after today you will contact me lesser and lesser. but dont forget, i will always be here for you. i wont be able to meet up with you like last time. actually i wanted to meet you just now, because im really afraid that i wont be a le to do so in the coming days. but i dont want to force you also, so this shall stay that way like you wish.
im sorry to cause a disturbance to your life once and hopefully now it had gone back to square 1. im really sorry. take care and much loves(:

a wonderful afternoon that starts off with no work again.
ok, actually there will be no work for the rest of the days till awesome saturday.
i shall start it off from fri.
Guides session was fine except that there were some unhappiness.
nvm, everything will be alright again with just a smile ok.
cheerup, these 2 ppl(: (i dont think im suppose to name out)
after that off to meet anying.
im late again ok as usual.hahahha
she claims that if i put that gold, dazzling strand on my hair i will look like some phillipino maid(is that how you spell?)
and im sad, for that moment i didnt want to put alr.
too many ppl queueing up for the strands.hahahha
ok, its just some party extention but in some shimmering, bright bright party poppers kind and only 1 strand for 50 cents. its not that kind of bunch of hair but its plastic i think
headed to her house before going hougang for our dinner.
met ruixin and anna there.
and some thing happened that just made us that afraid to enter somewhere again.
i think more to anna.hahahha.
saturday doesnt really go my way.
i dont like dont like dont like.
went back to collect our card and it started pouring
bad start to begin with.
and returned home to have a rest and wanted to go to fun dazzle with yvonne's kids.
they are damn cute i swear.
i shall a post a photo of them later
and its closed. so we brought them to the playground.
it just didnt turn out well.
but i bet the kids are having a good time enjoying themselves.
and of course, my day was being made up on sunday.
we went ard the whole place searching for just 1 shop
but still, we bought things.
and sitting in that roller coaster cab made us feel super uneasy.
im sure going to sue him if i rmbr the carplate no.
i think he will be awarded the best taxt driver ever(:
he leans again the door to one side when he drives and he kept braking like no one's business.
and expects us to smile to him when we alight.
he just totally changed our mood 360 degrees upside down ok
after walking for 15 min in amk, we decided to go off.
it will be pointless to continue. we walked like zombies
then then then, to kovan's hk cafe.
omgoodness la, we were offered this big big seat for just 2 person.
yes, ruixin claims that the toilet's grand too.
after to hougang kbox.
finally, after so many weeks.
im back to kbox again. sang sooooooooo many of my songs.
and maybe one shot i just sing 10 after that it then continued with ruixin's
normally charge would be 30 ++ for each, and ytd it was 30 ++ in total.
and today im free again to stay at home doing nth.
im so proud of myself i just sang a duet song well to me.
like finally.maybe a lil out of tune.
but still, i enjoyed.
rumaged through my photobucket and i realised i didnt post this photo up before.
it had been rotting inside for the past 1 yr.
i like this photo alot. see how much we had changed.

我陪你等天亮
拥抱着一起分享
能放心的哭一场
是再微笑的力量
只有你明白我的疯狂
不管故事有多长
世界对我太善良
这一路上有你我变得坚强(:

too bad my cable didnt work properly and i couldnt upload.
next time perhaps

i edit this for her! are you touched?
finally i posted it up.hahahha
i love ry(: if its not nice, i will do it again ok.


my perfect photoshot when i dont even know when i take it.
for the first time, i clipped my fringe.hahaha.
looked kind of spastic. but nvm, i think it looks quite presentable.
not very nice but this was kind of million months ago i guess.
and my eye looked kind of scary without half the eyeball seen.
its only a lil if you notice carefully.hahahha
IM SO ANNOYED YTD CAN!
it was my last working weekday ytd and i just wanted it to end beautifully.
and and and, this stupid customer just had to spoil it.
see i dont have the mood to blog again, its just all rantings.
bear with me or just exit from my blog.
she tried to bluff me into giving her a discount and claims that there was defects cause it was the last pc.
im like searching all over that dress for a single hole or any thread that drops out but everything was fine.
so i was like i've got no more and what you want me to do.
she just walk out. i admit my attitude was bad. it was also partly because of the leakage from the ceiling which flooded my shop ok and i was ill.
after like 30 sec, she came back asking me to reserve when she wants to draw money and will be back my 10.
i waited and waited, she cheated my feelings and gave a fake no.
wth la, im damn damn damn pissed.
i cannot blame right. but haojiemei told me that im in the wrong.
ok, so after talking on the phone i did not really care about that incident.
i love haojiemei, you made my day(:
was like telling him alot of stuffs and making him think for me.
but most of the time, it was me who was entertained with his power station, 99.4
that was crap. but he sounded like one.
hahha, the funnniest part was that i kept insisting that he was a gay.
i claimed that i saw him in girl's dressing behaving intimately with a guy.
in his skirt, high heels and lil pink handbag.
he says it was for some fashion show.hahaha
ok,nvm so last night i was entertaining myself throughout.
Ry was nice to allow me to post her photo since i edit it for her.
i cannot send her thru msn. so i shall post it.
less than a week and my new life begins.
I DONT WANT I DONT WANT I DONT WANT!
I DREAD SCH I DREAD SCH I DREAD SCH!
but who can understands my pain for starting sch in some ulu pandan place.
im stranded with no one not even a compass beside me.
going for guides now and out with anying later.
excitementttttttttttt!
im sure going to be damn happy the whole day.
everybody, smile with me pls(:
hahah. that was crap

YTD WAS UNPLEASANT.
maybe it all started with me to call.
all that would not happen just occured in a blink of an eye.
i did not hit target ytd again.
was slacking the whole way through, cause i know its impossible to hit it with such high expectatioins.
and i was talking to alot of ppl on the phone and i realised its time to catch up.
im sorry to neglect any of you ok. i would make it up to you all sooooooooooooon.
ok, dont take my words that seriously cause im still working and and and 1st person to date would of course be anying.
i didnt go out with her since maybe last month can. thats like damn long compared to our daily meetings in the past.
although things will never be the same again, i will still love her(:
for some of you who just disappeared suddenly esp. daphne (i know you wil be reading this), pls pls pls contact me soon before sch starts.
i guess i wont have the mood to go go sch everyday like how i go to work.
okok, suddenly i think my attitude suck alot.
probably its because of the sudden things that just arise.
perhaps i did offend some of you when i didnt realised, im so sorry

i'm deciding to close down my blog alr.
tell me if i should.

it's time to let go and not to be such a nuisance anymore.
and i don't think i will disturb you again.
im sorry if i did.

该忘了你对不对
我应该坚强面对
学会遗忘不能相爱的挣扎
记忆会为我收藏那些美丽时光
为爱付出过的力量
带着我去寻找幸福的希望
记忆是一个行囊
陪伴着我到世界流浪
我让悲伤都装上翅膀
再见了就不能倔强
该忘了你对不对
怕自己无法面对
无怨无悔把一切留给纪念
受过折磨的创伤
它会慢慢被岁月
一片片填满渐渐就习惯不再想
忘记曾经最痛的地方

im going to make this quick before i go work.
ytd went work again.
i feel like quitting alr, work's boring everyday ohoh
maybe i need a change of environment
anw, they waited for me to end work and went home tgt.
so nice of them right.hahhahah
i scare jesmine with the loud sharp scream like what i did to joyce and she just practically laughed all the way.hahahha
i didnt know i was that powerful to make her laughters last damn long.
today's work again. irritating.
and and and, i dread for time to pass so fast.
if i were to invent a time machine.

i think i shall make a fair stand.
why are speaking all way round everything when it ended up all at the same thing.
whatsmore, you are just contradicting yourself like no one's business.
if you dont speak up and just continue to be like that, nobody would understand what you are thinking of right?
so an advice for you, take it or leave it.
open up and talk things out.
and every lil misunderstanding that you are having will be cleared.isn't that so?
although i know im not suppose to be in this, cause i rmbred i just said a simple hello to you only.
but seeing her being accused without telling her what wrong she had done, its unfair you know
just let everything past if you want to continue ok.
nvm, i think you wont see this too. but but but im just using this 0.0000001% of chance and hoping you will this ok.
she really care for you.

i have to rush for work now.
wish me luck for today(:

damn irritating whenever i come to edit this stupid post it just got hung somwhere in the middle.
i took days to post this thing. say im lucky please.
after this, i swear im going to catch my sleep soon ok.
then again, i went for work.
i was damn angry ok cause my boss kept eating up my off day
she's not to blame anw.
the reason being i have to work today just because of this part timer whose hamster had just passed away and she's got no mood to work and therefore i have to take over her.
and its such a last min notice.
nvm, so i went to take over her today
my mood was alr damn terrible and i have to cab there in order to be early.
and this idiot who just appear from nowhere just snatch that cab from me.
fuming mad la. ahhh!
and i have to wait for damn long for another cab.
anw, hit target again today.i swear this week's pay going to be damn high. happiness ok. spending money again.
oh ya, i can reply cynthia's tag
yes, im working even after i start sch during weekends.
i know you miss me.hahahha
i want to go kbox badly again.
i dont know what to blog about alr apart from those rantings that i want to spare my blog with. oh ya oh ya, i remembered.
my sch mates came my shop today and 1 of them could not even recognise that im from the same sch.
hahahha maybe i look abit diff. when i let down my hair.
okok, my eyes are signalling me to stop typing.
before i end, i want to blog about this song.
i like this song damn alot for now:
QI DAI NI DE AI!

期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
你的存在 心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来 是因为爱
我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 越靠近越明白
不要走开 幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

im going to change my blogskin soon.
Not much of a diff. but maybe a lil more pleasant to the eye(:

YES, IM DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF FOR HITTING ALL SALES TARGET CONSECUTIVELY FOR THREE DAYS!
and thank goodness i had finally won that her.
of course, she's my best motivation than ever.
and i just rant all my unhappiness to everyone i saw.
cannot take it anymore. im grateful for all of your willingly listening ears.
so joyce psyco-ed me to take the same bus as her from workplace which apparently doesnt go to my house.
i was nice to take it with her.
i can never ever be serious with her ard.
i was trying to scare when it all started out solemn with a loud, sharp scream.
and in the end, she remained calm and the harvey norman guy gave this stupid reaction and hopped onto the cab.
it was damn hilarious.
we laughed non stop even on the bus.
her laughters are contagious.
after that, i was trapped at some ulu place.
took a cab to meet ruixin
she was kind enough to wait for me at the void deck.
we ended up at my hse talking and using the com.
she just left. but i spent most of my time talking on the phone.
well, im sorry ok. sorry sorry!
i was trying to search for a nice nice photo to post.
ok, there isnt any.
so shall post it next time.


although it might really seem that we are not talking to each other as much alr,it really hurts me for you saying that after poly i can just forget about my other friends.
seriously, i wont. maybe now its still early to tell.
but i do have confidence to say that.
and i would really hope you could tell me all the problems that you are facing.
i know solving it alone will be difficult.
rest assured, im always here.
if you dont wish to share, its okay too.
just tell me how you feel. at least i can do my very least just to console.
you once asked me not to disappear from your life.
i promised and i would abide to it.
i will really compromise to do whatever i could just to please you.
it takes 2 hands to clap and of course for you to have your trust in me.
friends aren't easy to come by

a picture few months ago.
so much had change in a blink of an eye.
i apologise for not blogging alot lately.
anw, who will be there to see?
i didnt mean to insult anyone.
i was damn damn damn pissed at work today
she's like younger than me and yet lecturing me.
common sense tells you to respect ok.
and bloody hell she came and suck up to me after i helped her in her sales.
2-faced snake. irritating la.
i dont like her, i dont like her, i dont like her.
hey, im smart to walk away and not quarrel any further with her
then again, sorry anying for not calling you after that when i said i would.
cause i must beat her in sales no matter what.
but in the end, i didn't
nvm, tmr will be the chance.
SHE'S MY BEST MOTIVATION!
i make sure i will win her. yes, i will
ruixin's back from camp alr i guess.
she should be sleeping now. hahahha.
i want to go out next week again.
im spending on alot of stuffs lately.
time to control but i cant.ahhh!
i hate it man.
i want a new blogskin.
will change it soon i guess.
sleeping time to replenish for tmr(:
once again i've forgotten to blog abt sth.
the pirate stalker is back in action.
i dont want to go home alone.
anyone wants to acc. me home?